Bad Mood

I woke up feeling tired this morning. That's just wrong. Waking up feeling tired defeats the whole purpose of sleeping, in my opinion. I mean doesn't it just negate everything your mother ever told you about going to bed? "If you don't go to sleep now, you'll feel tired in the morning!" she'd threaten. Well, ta da! I feel tired anyway, so I might as well have stayed up and watched Letterman. (Course, I couldn't watch Letterman anyway since I don't have a TV cable in my room, but that's neither here nor there.)
This cold has been lingering for almost 3 weeks now. I guess it's time to make an appoinment to see the doctor.

I am in a bad mood. I have been in a bad mood most of the week. I called in sick on Tuesday when I wasn't feeling sick and then I woke up feeling sick on Wednesday. If I never believed in the karma wheel before, I certainly do now! But I think it's my bedroom that's making me sick. No, let me rephrase that. I am worried that it's my bedroom that's making me sick. And I saw one of those bugs in my sink this morning. It's been a few months, and I was actually starting to feel comfortable again, and then bam! - there's another one! I don't even know what kind of bugs they are, which annoys the hell out of me.

I have been looking for a new job. I don't want just any job though. I never thougt I'd say this, but I actually want some kind of career. Some kind of job that I am proud of and look forward to every morning. I haven't been in the workforce that long, but I am already tired of bouncing from joe job to joe job, from cubicle to cubicle. Don't get me wrong - I still avoid responsibility like the plague. I don't have designs on being the boss or anything. But I want to feel good about what I do, feel confident in my ability to do it, and be motivated to make an effort to do more.
The job search is not going well, however, and I am getting very discouraged. Plus, the longer this goes on, the more anxious I feel about leaving my current job. I feel so guilty about leaving people high and dry.