The Bright Side of Life for $200, Alex

While driving in the car just now, I had a flash of worry that I have let a year of my life slip away from me. Sometimes I wonder, "how much more could I have accomplished if I hadn't let the funk get the better of me? Where would I be right now (job, living situation, etc.) if I had taken charge of my life?" But then I remind myself of the little joys that have made up the past year: the long drives, the road trips, the conversations, the pillow talk, the birthday parties, the barbeques, the candelit dinners, the baseball games, the scrabble games, the movies, the extra special bonus Tuesday evening complete with bowtie pasta with garlic and sausage sauce plus peas followed by a rousing episode of Jeopardy! and then a stressful episode of 24...
I don't know why it is so hard for me to focus on the positive. I just need to stop. I cannot waste another moment wondering what if. I have to believe that if it (life) was supposed to be different, it would be.

And now for something completely different
After 6 months, I finally turned in my expense report for a business trip I took in October! And I was just handed my reimbursement check - a whopping $47.44. Woo hoo! Party time!