Lemons and Strawberries

The twentieth day of 2004.... I am still clinging to my resolution excitement - "I will do better this year!" But, I have to face reality: I do not have any more money this year than last year; I do not have any more discipline or motivation; I do not have any job opportunities.....

I think I have watched Sleepless in Seattle too many times. I have convinced myself that I should be holding out for "magic," and that is a dangerous thing. First of all, one should not associate happiness in love with the exercise of sleight of hand or conjuring for entertainment. Secondly, as much as I would like it to, happiness (whether it be in love, work, or peanut M&M's) will not fall into my lap - I have to go out and find/make/purchase it for myself. Ergo (look at me with the vocabulary), my resolution for 2004 is to get off my ass and make my life what I want it to be.